After feeling so depressed and down this past few days, I believe I am FINALLY starting to pick up the pieces of me. And I have Francine, Dette, Ryan, Kris, Tricia, Rox and Bob to thank for. They are those who are responsible for making me happy just by being with their company. They made it easier for me to attend classes and be totally focused about them. It was definitely a relief that I was able to share to them what truly happened, without me feeling more sorry for myself.
Guys, I just want to say thank you for not reacting the way I was expecting. Thank you for not making me feel stupid and more stupid. And thank you for listening and trying to at least understand me.
Akala ko kasi iisipin nyong...ah basta!
Sobrang nagpapasalamat ako dahil friends ko kayo...
*drama no? wala lang!*
Posted by krissy at 8:00 PM
Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying?
(Tell me now)2x
Tell me why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!
Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
And makin' you feel blue
Is there anythin' that I can do
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling?
somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
(Give me a chance)
To put back all the pieces
Take hold of your heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do
Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry makin' you feel blue
Is there anythin' that I can do
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me baby
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender
Oh, and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
Posted by krissy at 11:35 AM
Just when you thought all those extermely happy and worth keeping memories are the ones you can all count on. Think again.
Just when you thought you were happy and contented at last with just a mere memory of the distant past. Think again.
Just when you thought you were truly lucky and blessed for you have been given the chance to know and love the people around you. Think again.
Just when you thought that being kind and excessively understanding is enough. Think again.
Just when you thought that every word uttered came from the innermost corners of his heart. Think again.
Just when you thought that such a creature of beautiful and radiating character could not possibly partake of any evil, think again. There is evil even behind smiling eyes.
Very painful it is when a person whom you love dearly has consciously and deliberately deceived, manipulated, and used you, just to satisfy his personal and selfish desires. Every damn word and action ever done was nothing but a big fucking LIE. For almost half a year, I fell under his control. And yeah, sir Esguerra was totally right when he said that when we are in love, we become blind in seeing the other person’s mistakes.
How could I ever underestimate him? How did I ever believe in every lousy explanation he had? How come I did not read his actions right? Or maybe, I read it right, but refused to believe in them.
I just could not believe that everything could dissolve into nothing, after all those sacrifices. Is this the price I have to pay for loving too much? Or is this another round of proof that I am not worthy and capable of loving? Is this a way of telling me that I am not good enough and will always be? Am I too hard to be loved? Am I not a person worthy of such appreciation? You tell me.
After all the hurt and suffering I’ve been through, I was willing to forgive you, AGAIN. It is all because I love you too much. I was willing to do that without expecting anything. But you destroyed me down to my tiniest unit. You wrecked me. You crashed every foundation I built for us, just by telling me that you did not love me from the start until these last few months.
After successfully hurting me, you are telling me that you now love me and that it was not hard for someone like you to fall in love with me. DAMN IT! How wicked can you get? Oh, I forgot. You also wanted me to come back to you. That is how WICKED you can be.
As much as I want to be happy with you, I am so afraid of trusting in you again. There is a part of me that still want you, and another doesn’t. I am sorry because this will take time. I am just a human being, susceptible of being hurt and afraid. I may be able to forgive you and move on, but for now give me time to heal myself and be whole again.
I am frightened that the love I have for you may not be sufficient to kiss all these pain away.
I love you, goodbye.
Posted by krissy at 10:46 AM
I HATE back fighters! I hate them! I hate her!
If this is the price I have to pay for discussing other people’s lives with my tropa, I would certainly, undoubtly and definitely would not EVER practice gossiping. I could not believe that such despicable and pretentious person still exists. In small and friendly and cheerful ways, she would see to it that you will fall helplessly on her trap. Miss one moment, one gathering, and you will serve her victim. She will savagely destroy your reputation and your very personality. She will rip open all your darkest and dirtiest secrets for all the people to see and hear. She will meddle with your private life. She can effortlessly raise your blood pressure before you can even blink your eye. And she can do all this, without getting her image destroyed, without making herself looked as if she was the “kontrabida.” Instead, the victim being pitied, it is her who gains all the people’s sympathy. How evil can she get?
However, even though I know for a fact that she have done this a million times before me, I will make sure that I will make my side clear. I will make sure that she would learn her lesson. I will divulge her devious ways. I will not ignore her acts, but instead I would correct them, even if it means that I have to use offending ways. Yes, offending ways ? because she has grown immune to subtle and kindly approaches.
I try to be friendly. I try to please other people. I try to understand them. I try to forgive the little things they’ve done wrong. I always try to smile even though I feel great anger. But this time, I would not try to ignore it.
She successfully found the key to unleash my entire wrath.
Let all hell break loose!
Posted by krissy at 10:18 AM
