Imagine your biggest and most horrifying nightmare comes to life and haunt you for real. It felt too real. It felt so scary that it gave me goosebumps! It was too terrifying that it took me a long time to get over it. The thing I hate about it the most was that I did it, I was not forced to, and I actually wanted it, enjoyed it. I truly hate myself. Even if it was just a dream, I still made that choice, with my own free will.
Had to punish myself, for being so stupid and weak at the same time.
Posted by krissy at 10:46 AM
I do not approve of taking naps on the afternoon, aka siesta, for it makes me insomniac at night. However, due to a slight twist of fate, blame it on the gazillion house chores I've done, I just found myself sleeping not in the afternoon but in the very early hours of the evening, mga 6 to 7 pm lang naman. I woke up an hour short of midnight and did my supposed routine. I ate, took a bath, and trimmed my nails. But still, I am far from getting sleep yet again. And what better thing to keep me up is to surf the net and update my blog?
Last friday, Ate Len left us, or rather we let her go. With her gone, all chores assigned to her automatically had fallen upon our heads. As if I was possessed by some spirit that I turned from a root-and-fruit-bearing-bum to a full-blown-and industirous-being. I was just surprised that I did not felt any reluctance to do all the work left, but instead I felt happy. I dunno if it is because at last I have something to do, or I see it as a means to lose weight. Whatever my reason maybe, at least I know that I am gradually preparing myself to go back to school and be buried with loads and loads of my academics.
Posted by krissy at 1:01 AM
Feeling lazy that I am, I failed to keep my posts updated. Maybe because I feel like I have nothing to say or I am just dead lazy.
I recently rediscovered the wonders of star wars. Even though I have yet to see Episode 3: Revenge of the Sith, I just found myself drooling over the last 2 episodes. I have never realize that the soon to be Darth Vader was such an eye candy, and he exudes a certain kind of aura, peculiar only to him. With this newly-acquired-liking, I promised myself that I will watch the third installment before school begins. That's a great way to finish summer, aight?
A few months ago, I met a person and lets call him P. Unlike any other persons that I met, I found in him great sincerity and the desire to believe. Just observing this super kind and almost perfect radiating being, makes me bow to him with great respect. I am certainly awed by his peculiar characteristics - characteristics that I could not believe still existed in one body. Don't get me wrong, I do not have any feelings for this guy, the "like" feelings for that matter. I just wish that every guy could have what makes him so girls like us won't have a hard time finding our own Mr. Right.
Posted by krissy at 8:07 AM
Life is such a beautiful thing to waste.
I am feeling so happy right now that I could imagine myself floating on cloud nine! Wahehehe! I have decided not to be sad anymore. I realized that life is offering me lots of wonderful and fantabulous opportunities. I realized that I've got so much things to do, so many goals to accomplish, and so many ways to be happy and contented.
Feeling optimistic that I am, I am looking forward for lots of beautiful days like these ahead. And I know that it is up to me to make beautiful "things" happen. *wink wink*
Posted by krissy at 11:50 AM
I got my student's license today and I am extremely happy and excited about driving.
I am going to get some training very soon.
And it scares me that I may turn our car into some wreck. wahihihi. :p
May God forbid it.
Posted by krissy at 11:05 PM
<_eskapo_>
To escape is not the best way to resolve your problems and personal issues, but it is the easiest and the most feasible option for human beings such as myself. The only drawback of it is that you don’t actually overcome them; you are just forcing them to bury itself in the deepest and darkest corner of your being.
To escape is to show that you are coward. To escape is a desperate act. To escape is to take the risk of leaving all those who are precious and dear to you just because you can’t stand that teeny-weeny-bitchy problem of yours. To escape is to enjoy in the illusion that you could actually find a temporary haven for your soul, away from all those crap ? only to be haunted again in the end. To escape is to pretend that you are strong, but are truly weak on the insides. To escape is to hope that you could someday move on, without facing it. To escape is to show that you are tough enough to take that step forward without that horrible thing and live again. To escape is to desire to become someone better. To escape is to find another source of happiness aside from what you have been used to. To escape is to live a life away and very different from the former. To escape is to set your priorities straight. To escape is to desire that you want to make yourself better. To escape is to prove that you want to have more of what you got, so that after you are seemingly contented, you may come back and finally resolve all those problems. To escape is a medium to find the strength to face him again and hope that you may able to say and show the things you long wanted to express.
To escape is the best way to find yourself, feel complete and realize the importance of the people you love around you.
Posted by krissy at 12:14 AM
I shiver at the idea of spending the rest of my life with only one person. But the idea of you not being in my life scares me more.
Maybe I didn’t treat you quite as good as I should have. And maybe I didn’t love you, quite as often as I could have. Little things that I should have said and done, I just never had the time. But you were always on my mind.
People say that only when you are in love are you truly alive.
When you really want something in this world, all of the universe conspires in helping you achieve it.
If you really love a person, set him free. Luma na yan! Duwag lang ang gumagawa niyan, dahil and tao kung mahal mo talaga, paglalaban mo hanggang sa huli at hindi mo ipamimigay. Kaya nga mahal mo diba?
As long as I know for a fact that the sun will rise again tomorrow, I will continue to hope and believe that I am destined to love and experience a happily-ever-after ending with you.
Maraming dahilan, pero ang dahilan ko ay ikaw.
Posted by krissy at 12:10 AM
I’ve been hopeless
Waiting here in my door
From the top of my head
Down to this narrow floor
I’ve been so awake
I’ve been so afraid to know… to know…
Tell me what to do
I don’t know why I’m hopeless
In this show
Tell me it doesn’t hurt
If I’ll found out that I’m alone
Coz I’ve been waiting for so long
Do I need to wait here or go
Wait or go?
Wait or go?
Wait or Go
6 Cycle Mind
Exactly. It says it all.
Posted by krissy at 12:05 AM
